So there's been about four or five break ins to cars in our parking lot. So far its the other end of the parking lot but I'm nervous guys.... Very nervous.

I've had three dreams now about saying I love you to Mike.

Rawr. Each one has even had the focus on 'we've never said this before'

Went well. I have no voice. My throat hurts. I like it though. I didn't sleep well last night. Not sure if its combo of the ling day or Mike's snoring or my nose being plugged or the phlegm in my chest or my feet hurting or my eyes hurting....

Tomorrow is day two.

Got a second job. Pizzaland. Out other end of city where bf lives. Weekends only. Start tonight at 7. I'm scared.

The end.

I feel like I have so much to say when I'm away from the computer, but then when I sit down, I cant think of any of it. Of course.

I need to say it, 'cause I can't say it to him, not yet. Issues and yadda yadda.

I love Mike.

This feeling can't be anything but that. I can't explain it, and I don't know if I want to explain it. More and more it....almost hurts to be away from him. I'm really dreading this next weekend. From the day we met, we haven't spent a weekend apart from eachother. This next week/weekend mom and dad are going to Vegas for mom's birthday and I'm supposed to house sit. And cat sit/feed. Which means all weekend. And I dont know if there's a way to do this and see him and it's making me really antsy. And I don't want to tell him that cause I feel like he'll just laugh and say it'll be fine.

I want nothing more than to be with him, to say I love you, to live with him....to marry him.
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New layout! Yay!!  All Whovian.

I haven't updated in a while, and I realize I said that last time too. I'm going month by month I guess.

Mike.....oh Mike. He makes me so happy.

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*long string of happy noises*

OOH!

On another note!

I've been officially told that I'm acting supervisor while the current supervisor is at school (two days a week) and when she leaves on mat leave in a month or so. Meaning I'll be supervisor during summer. Yikes. I don't think I get a pay increase at all, but its still pretty cool. Since I've been told that, I've felt more powerful, and feel like I'm in more control of things. But it's been two days, and supervisor returns from school tomorrow, so we'll see how that goes.

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That is all.

And apparently LJ has changed a bit since I've last been on. Weird posting layout now. Wow.

Anyway. I feel bad for not being on lately, but I will not apologize for how happy I've been. I can't believe its only been two months that Mike and I have been going out because it feels like so much longer. In the good sense. Everything feels so comfortable and natural around him. We went grocery shopping today and he joked about how we've hit the domestic stage and laughed.

We went to the Conservatory today and I've never been. It was pretty neat. Lots if pretty cool plants and khoi fish. It was his birthday this last week and he manages to get away from home to come over for Saturday night. Its difficult with the kids. Him having the boys half the time and his daughter doesn't like going to sleep if no one is home. She calls us a "boring couple" but we can't do anything because or the kids. Not resentful, I just have a brand new appreciation for parents and how they ever have more than one kid with lack of alone time.

I feel like there is so much I should be asking him to learn, but I can't think of it.

Did discover that his wedding...they wore pyjamas. How kind of awesome is that? And honestly makes me feel better. Stupid I know but if things progress I feel better knowing he hasn't seen a ...for lack of better word....proper bride. If that makes sense.

But I wish I could express more but all I can keep saying is just how right it feels. Its weird because there are things that bug me, things I don't bribe attractive or appealing but because its *him*.

He has been so patient with me, with my fears and just everything. I've never liked sex, always been afraid if it or just uncaring cause past partners made it all about them. He puts me first, he spends so much time pampering me with kisses and touches and more before he thinks of himself. He takes the time to get me ramped up and he picks up on cues I don't even realize I'm sensing and its amazing. I enjoy sex now. Its still a tad painful but I think the ultrasound I had last week will help me figure out why, along with my cramps etc. Someone suggested it might be a tilted...uterus (or was it pelvis?).

Mmm....wish I could be more articulate. Maybe in the future.

Loves to you all.

My heart goes out to all those affected by the Sandy Hook Elementary shooting.

=(

I am so very, very happy.

More to come.

And I'm feeling pretty good about this month. Hopefully that extends into my job situation too. No further movement on that front sadly.

Good thing is I think we're getting a bonus from work. A letter got put into our mailbox that I don't think was supposed to be there. It talked aabout the Board writing two separate checks for our bonuses to cut on the taxes that would be removed, so I'm thinking at least $198 cause if we get a check for $99.99 taxes don't come off. Last year, a coworker said, she got a check for $1300, but with taxes taken off it ended up being $900. Definitely won't be this much this year, because we have to pay rent for our space now, but I mean, even $100 is helpful to me now.

I forget my sister's birthday the other day. I feel like shit for that. In my defense....I had a date? It was last night, and it went relly well. We talked for just shy of three hours at Dessert Sinsations. There's something really familiar about him, and I can't place it. His mannerisms are very familiar, and Eve is joking( I think? ) that it means our spirits met in another life. lol We have a lot of things in common. He watches Doctor Who, he takes photos, he's made more cakes than I have (and pretty intricate ones from the sounds of it!) and has worked in a few bakeries. He talked about how he was always picked on in school and felt the odd one out for being one of the few people who didn't want to drink/smoke/do drugs, and how he tended to make friends with teachers and grownups more than the kids in school. He likes scary movies, he talks about ideals like he's very old fasahioned, and he has no issues with my beng bi. "I lack the things a woman can offer, but I figure if you were set on women you'd be with one, or ignoring me." I ordered a raspberry milkshake last night, and he gave me a strange look, and then told me that's what he usually orders when he comes there. He knows all about the Church of the Flying Spaghetti Monster, and infact wanted to start his own religion when he was in Highschool of the...something toster or something. Apparently it only takes 26 signatures to be an official religion?

He's working, but doing schooling towards becoming a...'floural penatrent inspector' which apprently means he can inspect anything from cranes to pipelines to aircraft components to food industry equipment for defects and cracks. It will certify him across Canada, I think he said. He calls me Miss every once in a while. "Goodnight Miss K"

Just, had a really good time, and by the time I'd driven home, he'd already texted me a smilie face, and asked "would it be bad that I want to see you tomorrow night?"

Insert little goofy giggle?

Through conversations, there have been things that I've said I haven't seen and he's said he'll show them to me, then said at some point "is it bad that I want to show you all this stuff?"

• Eternal sunshine of the spotless mind
• Adventures with finn and jake
• Cannes commercial festival at the WAG
• Being Human

So, yeaah~

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I totally forgot the main reason foor posting today.

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